Thursday, September 21, 2017

So.. What Now?

Many of you have been following our adoption journey for a few years now. In 2013 we brought home our precious son Josh through International adoption. He has been such a blessing to our family.

As you may remember, this year (2017) we began working towards another international adoption only to have to put those plans on hold due to meeting a person who was going to become a birthmom and was giving us the opportunity to adopt her child. At first we were so confused, why was God allowing us to meet this person if domestic adoption was never our plan. We prayed and sought wise counsel. We believed we had the green light and proceeded to get to know this person, attend doctor appointments with her, make sure she was well cared for and had a healthy pregnancy, completed a Domestic Homestudy and even met with an attorney who would take care of the legal aspect of it all. Everything was going smoothly and we began preparing our home for the arrival of this new life that would join our family. From setting up a precious nursery to eventually preparing our son for this child's arrival.

The birthmother seemed to have her mind set that this is what she wanted for her child. She spoke about the bright future this child would have with us and how excited she was for us. We were thrilled. In early September she went into labor and had to be rushed in for an emergency c-section. I was only allowed to peek through a window while my future child would take her first breath. Those first few hours were crucial. Unfortunately we soon learned she had changed her mind and was no longer going to give her child in adoption.

So why all of this.. why allow us to go through this traumatic event only to be left empty handed, still owing an attorney who never got to finish her job. All I can say is, I don't yet understand. I hope that I will one day. We believe in God, we believe His plans are perfect and we are trusting that this in some way had to happen in order for us to end up here.

So now that we have a domestic homestudy, should we pursue another adoption within the US. Perhaps this was just a roadblock or a pause we had to make in order to realize that our hearts have always been in international adoption. I don't know. What I do know is that I love adoption, I always have. Don't believe me, just ask my parents who will tell you how their once 15 year old wanted to bring a child who became orphaned into their home. I believe God gives people a heart for different things and we are able to find purpose through those things. My heart has always been for the orphaned, adopting Josh and seeing the poverty these children grow up in abroad has only defined my purpose.

Please keep us in your prayers as we try to seek the Lord's will for our lives and family. If you would like to make a donation and help is with our future adoption you may do so by visiting the link on the right hand side section of this blog.

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